It is when you stop going along with the crowd (I never prefer going with strangers and that too in crowd.)and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
May be we shouldn't think about judging them, and stating them that they are Selfish and that..It is better to keep our feelings with us and try loving them as they are.We can't change people,I believe that we cannot force others to change their nature instantly.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
Coming to the Job,I don't know what I am doing.
I don't know what I want too..
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
I used to love my past all the time.I have this kind of feeling for most of the time.It really got me into it during my Engineering..
But right now again, I feel the same way..May be we are not realizing the importance of Present and hoping for the best in future with a feeling to go to back to Past..!!
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.(We stick to our thoughts,feelings and so on..It is completely about us.But what we miss for most of the time is about others and what they feel,think,react and so on...) One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
P.S: This post is not entirely scripted by me.The main script was done by my friend,but I have edited it a bit and added(explained) few sentences with my thoughts..
But all my feelings,thoughts and emotions are same as mentioned above..
Courtesy:My Friend's Blog..(A.D)
