Bang..!!

Bang..!!

I was Unconscious for a moment.I couldn't realize what has happened to me..
I couldn't see anything.Everything was blurred.

The next moment.., I could feel the pain..,and I started rubbing it instantly..Something was wet & sticky ..It was my Blood..More than the pain..,I hated that concussion state..
And believe me..,blood is one of worst smells..

After all this ..I had recollected the incident..Accidentally..,
I banged my head super hard to our Iron Gate..That caused all this havoc to me..

It didn't even stop there..May be it was a sign for the coming things..I didn't read it properly and ignored it..

This time..,it was Traffic Police...They stopped us..!!
I don't have my Driving License..,Helmet...,Bike Papers..and list goes on and on..I just went to drop him.I only have my Phone..Then ..He asked us to pay 500..We finally managed a bargain and paid him 100.

Then I realized..,sometimes.., you have to read those signs..
All this happened because..,I wanted to help my room mate...,I could have stayed back in my room..But this crazy itch to help people sometimes hurts quite badly..I am not specifying about this incident..But that was my opinion which was grown over years..


So...,Finally..,what I want to say is.." Read the signs."
Help people...,but don't be a slave of this habit ..!!

Have fun & Take care..:)

24

17-December-2011

I am STUPID

Why I'll be Furious in no time..??

I could have thought at that moment, with out loosing my PATIENCE..

I can't wait for anything...!!

I hate waiting ..!!

what I am doing is not going to fix the problem,its going to pile up and it will burst out ..!!

If that happens, I'll loose my composed state & It will completely take over me..!!

We should control us. 

I should have control over ME.!!

Google's 13 B'day

Many Many Happy returns of the day Google..:D..!!

http://www.google.co.in/

Why do I do this to myself all the time..??

Why do I do this to myself all the time..??
I know they don't give a damn.,but still why am I feeling bad even when they are low..??

I should try to be normal..I am expecting so much from them.
They can't do what they are not capable of...??
They don't have it..So ,let them be..Why should I ponder about it..??


I can't expect them to understand me.
People are different..And I am different from them.
I should understand that.!!

I can't change much..I'll be like this..I am like this from 20 years,,Its not going to change in an instant way or with an incident..!!

I hope , these kind of situations won't occur in future..And even if they happen,at least any one of us should be matured enough to eradicate all this..!!

Hachiko & Loyalty

I saw a movie called "Hachiko" .
I don't have enough words to praise these kind of beings for their "LOYALTY".
Even though the movie was not so good,but the true story of the dog's loyalty made me cry.
Hopefully,Humans will also show that to some extent.

I don't know,why I have a problem with my species..??
Somehow,I feel that we are not as good as other creatures existing in this planet.
All we are doing is running like the race horses after money.

I don't think even Humans can beat them ,when it comes to love and loyalty.
Dogs are such a wonderful creatures..
Aren't they..??

Now,I'm missing them the most..:(

Taste of Rampur

Today..
we went to Taste of Rampur..
Its not good..
Its kind of OK...




Had good time..
You can expect that too..
but I turned up,its ab't feeling mentally fit..:)

These Days....!!!

It is when you stop going along with the crowd (I never prefer going with strangers and that too in crowd.)and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

May be we shouldn't think about judging them, and stating them that they are Selfish and that..It is better to keep our feelings with us and try loving them as they are.We can't change people,I believe that we cannot force others to change their nature instantly.

You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Coming to the Job,I don't know what I am doing.

I don't know what I want too..

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

I used to love my past all the time.I have this kind of feeling for most of the time.It really got me into it during my Engineering..
But right now again, I feel the same way..May be we are not realizing the importance of Present and hoping for the best in future with a feeling to go to back to Past..!!

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.(We stick to our thoughts,feelings and so on..It is completely about us.But what we miss for most of the time is about others and what they feel,think,react and so on...) One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

P.S: This post is not entirely scripted by me.The main script was done by my friend,but I have edited it a bit and added(explained) few sentences with my thoughts..

But all my feelings,thoughts and emotions are same as mentioned above..

Courtesy:My Friend's Blog..(A.D)

Bangalore climate is AWESOME today..:D

The climate in Bangalore is too good today..

I enjoyed it,,,

It was very Pleasant.!!

I should be SELFISH

I went for partying yesterday for celebrating our one year at MahindraSatyam.

I don't know how people can be SELFISH.Just thinking about them and doing what they want to do all the time.

They are not at all bothered about others,they came and did what they wanted..!!
seriously I'm hating them,why I'm having these feelings..??

Do they really deserve these hard feelings..??
Right now,it seems correct for me..
Hopefully it may change,because I can't have these mixed feelings towards them..

I can't even explain how awkward the party was..??

There are about 12 people,but only 4-5 people have the right to do what ever they want.Its only their party.I was pissed off seeing them and their deeds.
Its not about them all the time.
They should try to understand and behave when they are in a group.
And I need to specially mention about One Idiot.
That Idiot still couldn't understand why people didn't mingle..??
More over ,That Idiot is explaining me to take things lightly..
It was very funny at that point..
OOH..!! Such DUMB people..
I thought,I'm DUMB.

These people are way above my level..I can't reach them in these aspects.

May be I'm not used to this SELFISH acts.I should get used to it and start behaving like that.

I know they are going to spoil me in no time.
I'm changing already,I never used to yell at others often,but these days its coming out of me.
I should control my emotions.

They already lost their position in my heart.
Now,its up to my Brain.
I'm thinking like that.I'm feeling BAD about this.

Why am I judging people all the time..??
Why can't I bear them..??
Why I can't stand their stupid SELFISH acts..?

I'll have the answer for all the questions,if I start acting SELFISH completely.


Come on you people,
Please spoil me or you be spoiled like me..!!

Never cried this long for a while,thanks for the tears

Why..??
Why I am sick of people..??
I hate strangers.
In Fact ,I'm hating all the people and their acts.
I hate to make new relationships..
I'm hating the relationships I have made,because they are hurting others.

I shouldn't have been there.
Making every one feel bad,making me feel bad..

I don't understand them..
They are the most selfless people.
They are the divine human beings who were ever born before.
They did so many things for me..
They helped me all the time.
They were there for me all the time.
They accompanied me in all my moments in PAIN & joy.

still,I have never felt a bit of it.
I'm expecting more from them.
Its my mistake,I should never expect them to be good to me.
I should be selfish like them and may be that's the way to build up relationships in present world.

They don't understand my feelings,how I feel ..??
How I react..??
Its not at all a problem for them.

I don't deserve to be with these good human beings..
I'm the bad one,
I'm not their type
I can't mingle.

If someone says it very seriously with an intense expression on his face,and the person receives you with such a warm gesture.
I don't have sense of humour.
Thanks to the person who cracked this..
Thanks to his sense of humour.
Fuck that Idiot.
I have never spoken to him..
He can crack jokes up on me..
I should bear them,I can't.
And I'll never do that to a person who is not familiar..


I got hurt there,
And I should say Sorry and please everyone.I didn't understand them.
Its my mistake ,I know that..
They are the people who have never done any mistake,never hurt any one..and they will never do..
But I can't be like them..


Even I feel for something,its hyper-emotional for them..
oh..!! They say even that to me..
Fuck them...
That's how I feel..
I can't change that..
I'm feeling that way for more than 20 yrs..

why can't they try and understand..??
They know that I won't understand people,so they can try to understand me.

I'm crying everyday,I can't change my way and I don't want them to change theirs too..

If you people want to KILL me..
Please make it fast..
I can't bear this anymore..

As you people have labelled me ,I'm weak.
I can't endure this pain anymore.

Its a bit too much for them.
But its not for me.This is how I am..!!
Try and Understand..!!

Even I tried to understand you people.
You know what I found..
I found the meaning of "SELFISHNESS".
That's all you people showed me.
I can never think of good aspects of you people,because that's the way you treated me.
I'm hating you people more for your bad,even though all you people have something good in you.
I'm wrong in judging you people like that too..
I'm judging people,If I start judging people,I can't love them..This is what Mother Teresa said.
Why should I judge people?
why can't I love them as they are..?
It is my problem.
Somehow,I'm finding something wrong in everyone and I'm not happy about that..

I feel for this too..

Feeling for this also would be Hyper to them.

Please leave me alone.
May be I'm not the one you think of,I'm very emotional...
I'm a Hypersensitive person too..

Thanks for your treatment,I can never explain how you all people made me feel..

I did the same to you too..
But the person suffering more is me,because I still think of those moments where I could have kept my thoughts to myself.
Sorry for hurting you people in any way..

Even If I say it hurts ,they say you are weak,..

I don't have enough freedom to be me and express my feelings..

I know I'm going to hurt more people If I start doing what I want to do.
Some how I'm hurting them while I'm not being me too.

All the people..
I'm Hypersensitive..
why can't they understand that..??

I can't tell this to anyone,If I explain it..
they will say ..You will over react..!!

If I don't take it seriously..then they can hurt me more..

If I take it seriously,and If I feel bad for that..
Then they can say it is a JOKE..

I'm IMMATURE & DUMB, that I can't even understand a joke....

Finally all you people..
I'm sorry for everything I had done..
I felt bad than you people might have felt.
of course its my perception.
I cannot say how others feel,if I hurt them.

I have hurt many people and I'm really really sorry for that..!!
I'll try not to hurt anyone further...


I am MY PROBLEM.
I'm an Introvert.
I'm hypersensitive
I'm mentally disabled person.
I need a counselling from a psychiartist.
I know how dangerous I can be..??
I'm living in such a pathetic state of mind that I feel something is wrong with my brain..
Somehow it aches a lot sometimes..!!
I'm a murderer,because I'm killing me..
I'm selfish.
I'm arrogant.
I'm an Idiot.
I'm MAD.
I'll over react.
I'll think too much.
I'll think about everyone I can remember.
It is my parents mistake that their Upbringing was like this.
Now,I'm the Rudest person in the world for blaming my parents.
I'm not even blaming them,its just circumstances,nobody is a born genious in parenting a kid.
Its a new task to them.
They took it and tried their best to help me.
But I'm the most useless person that I couldn't figure out my problems with their Upbringing.
I'm such an Idiot that I started blaming them for my state of Mind.
I'm sorry..
I'm not a good son.Sorry to disappoint you.

Its up to me..I should be responsible for myself.
I'm finding my answers.
I have to take some stupid/painful decisions.
I'll do that..

I'll conclude this soon.

I'll contribute my bit for

Making this world a Happy place.

I'm missing something..:(

I'm missing something..:(

I don't know the reason,why I'm feeling like this..
But it is annoying me from few days.

This feeling is really making me sick.

I want to move away from this.
I want to go away from everyone and spend some lonely time,so that I can discover myself and my problem with that feeling..

I want a solution for this..!!

People

I wish people would SHUT UP or GROW UP...and STOP inflicting misery on others with their backstabbing gossip and trying to destroy relationships outta jealousy.!!

Feb-17-2011...@AD...:(

I'm not at all good at loosing people.
In fact I suck at this.
I'm so much dependent up on them,that I can't even think about not having them around..:(.


Today,after a long chat , I came up with her future plans.Although its her choice.
But I felt a bit greedy at that instinct,but I should respect her choice.

I don't know how I'm going to cope up with this..

"Time is the healer."

That's all I can say now..:(

Msat IBG CE1 Party on Jan30-2011 @ Confident Cascade.

I had a very good time at Msat IBG CE1 party.
I want to party again..;)

Its not me.
Because,I don't usually prefer crowds at party.
I like the list to be as short as possible.
But,Its good that ,I'm enjoying that crowded atmosphere too..

Its a very tough journey ahead for me..
This transformation of being an Introvert to Extrovert is not at all easy ...

I'm trying hard..
Hopefully,One day I might have what I want..!!

Sankranthi.

Hey Folks..

How are you?
Hope you are doing fine..
Coming to "Sankaranthi"..
why do people celebrate "Sankranthi".?
I just want to know that how many people don't know about this..?

Thats all for now..
Bye
TC...:)

Night Out..

Enjoyed my Night out after a long time..:)
..
I don't know the reason why I lost interest in NIGHT OUT'S....
During my stay @ Vizag,they were the most fun days..
But suddenly ,I'm not comfortable with them anymore..

I guess,the reason is my work..

Today was a bit different, infact I felt very good during this night out..

I had analyzed myself in this stay..:)

TC...